I’ve long espoused a High Saturation Life, defined by my theory of Absolute Value Intensity. Allow me to update this framework from my current position in the backseat, on our way up the mountain.
长久以来，我一直深信一种高饱和度的人生。那是我的”绝对价值强度”理论下的生活方式。
请允许我对这一框架作出更新，站在我目前人生的视角，在我们前往山巅的路上。
I will choose a lifetime of intensity over a lifetime of idleness on the principle that all potent experiences are Life and Living in their most unadulterated form, irrespective of positive/negative value ascription.
我之所以会选择紧张的生活，而不是选择无所事事的生活，是基于一个原则——
「一切可能的体验，本身即是生命」。
它们是生命最未经稀释的状态，无论事后我们认为它们是正面或负面的。
I mean this less in the literal sense of endorsing a lifetime of torture, but rather an abjuration of a life well lived as defined by the pursuit of pleasure…and the avoidance of pain.
我不是在鼓吹痛苦。我的意思，是放弃过那种被**「趋乐避苦」**简单定义的生活。
I want the lifeblood of every experience — ecstasy, despair, hope, fear, doubt, triumph.
我真正渴望的，是生命本身的鲜活和充盈：狂喜、绝望、希望、恐惧、怀疑、胜利。
Now I understand what I truly mean is not a blind pursuit of intensity — “Vitality”, in the sacred sense I seek, would be a gross misnomer for hedonism — but rather a life of ownership.
现在我明白了，我真正想表达的，并不是对强度的追求——尽管我所追求的 神圣生命力 ，很容易被误解成另一种享乐主义。但其实我追求的是：「完整的拥有」。
I do not eschew respite, but aimlessness. I do not spurn stillness, but stagnation.
我不拒绝休憩，我拒绝的是漫无目的。 我不排斥静止，我排斥的是灵魂的停滞。
It is ownership I yearn for.
我渴望「真正的拥有」。
If I do not own my failures, in the fullness of heartbreak and the limpidity of devastation, then I have no right to my victories.
如果我不拥有我的失败，不拥有那些心碎的时刻，不拥有毁灭时的清醒——那我就没有真正拥有胜利。
If I am to suffer, I will do so willingly, and with the knowledge and clarity that this is my life to experience in every dimension it can offer me.
如果我要受苦，那么我会心甘情愿这么做，因为我清楚地知道，这是我自己的人生——我要体验它呈现的每个维度。
And when I seek pleasure, I will do so with the intentionality and respect life deserves.
而当我寻求快乐时，我也会带着觉知和尊重去享受，对得起生命的每一刻。
So yes, I can slow down. I just choose not to.
所以是的，我可以慢下来。我只是选择不。
And if I do,it’s on my own terms.
如果有一天我选择了放慢脚步，那会是基于我自己的定义。
🏔️ The mountain is calling. She answers. 🏔️